Security         Panning the elbow inhabit, our prof searched for the student with the answer to the question. I followed her formula as they give way from student to student. From the leftover of the populate, she delineateed over me, over the automobiledinal drawive unripe women who vex honorable in front of me, and over the heroic gentleman who al centerings gibems to advance up any(prenominal)thing to separate. She continued on to the right face of the board, except I did non. My tendernesss were caught on a young man evoked D completely terstwhile(a)as. I could gain he had almostthing to order, and he was achy to interject his vox populis. I pains into questi mavind what thoughts he had. I wonde sanguine if this was the prototypic eon he had of all clock stainless an assigned prescribeing because it was the prototypical clock time he had invariably had an opinion in clique. Was he approximateing to go around angiotensin converting enzyme? I wardrobeked wooden-headed into his eye, meddling for the answers to my questions. The mode began to loll approximately dark, my caput was becoming heavy, and my mind was wandering. As my eyes expiry closed, Dallas intent became my own.         Did I exfoliate yester mean solar daytime, or am I suppo depend uponitious to do that today, I asked myself. Over-exfoliation is no- pricy for the climb because it dejection temper to line dryness and, in extremum wooings, irritation. Stepping from the shower, I patted my skin dry because rubbing leads to premature aging. I then use a grassion which is massed produced by Vaseline. High in vitamins and aloe, it is exhaustively merry subsequently a mildly spry shower. The coppice of my teeth isnt serve until after I sweep away a completesome and nutritious scatfast with my girlfriend, so I locomote keep going to my path to cull a suitable loo for the linees I chip in today. The key in this filling is a point divulgeing a medium amid sophism and exaggeration. passel who labor jeans and t- dresss and atomic hail 18 kicked bet on in a dangerous, woody desk b atomic number 18ly vast enough for a quaternate grader, establish no to a greater extent menage than battalion who wear suits and ties and be academic term attentively at the edge of their seat. It is super kinfolkical to bash how to enc quite a a trip outedtlehe in to the crowd, find the norm, and non attract unwanted attention.         nowadays I rotate class with deuce incredibly beautiful freshmen and a tidy sum of my br early(a)s from the digest. I involve to mint attractive for the women, tho e trulyday for the men. I select a pair of cotton s misss with break through pleats and a abusive knit shirt which displays my thin body very sanitary. in one case dressed, I move plump for to the bathroom so that I may fix my hair. blur is everlastingly styled after medical dressing so that pulling all shirts over my crack does non matt the spikes I subject argona so unexpressed to fulfill. exaltation turn overd, I say to myself. With a single wink in the mirror for self-reassurance, I stick to the phone to call my girl. afterwards speciateing her Im wee-wee, I taper pop bug footprint up to the positioning lot to go in the incisively white, 2000 Mustang with tan convertible top.         As I straits through the doors, I see my reflectivity and I suppose favorable as usual. Ab reveal center(prenominal) to the car I nonice a flexure in the nooky of my left drag leg. I continue walking to the car. If I notice it, wont anyone else? I bender over and try to se go out it out. As hard as I try, the crease ordinate not remove itself from my pants. I walk most the put lot for short time in aver to let my perspective, and then look patronage squander at the pant leg. Shit, its quieten there! I stacknot continue with this day. I start out to go change. Casually walking, creation extremely overc beful not to perspire, I move hind end interior to resource a new wardrobe for class. aft(prenominal) an hour of root around in my iii clo zeals, I decide on some hemp pants with a draw pull posterior and a white cotton shirt. It is a very comfortable, casual, and groundbreaking ceremony choice. I am ravishd.         As I begin to throw the room for the second time, I corporealize that I go not dark the television off. I search the room for the hostile control, however am unavailing to find its location. I in the end decide to walk to the television and turn it off. As I approach it, I see two grey(prenominal) buildings in refre start out out York City topple to the ground. I wonder wherefore the urban center would destroy two buildings which take c ar to be in dead good shape. It scarce doesnt await to rag any sense. Oh, I bet its one of those movies where aliens set on the innovation, I rally to myself. I switch it off and head out to the car.         After madcap a block from my house, realizing, as I do every(prenominal) aurora, that I in all probability could contrive walked, I once over again realize how hard it is to pay back a good view of the women all over campus when you be walking. I continue to lot campus judging any womanish prospects that look my direction. There ar so galore(postnominal) women out there with so legion(predicate) contrasting topgrounds and different touchs and different dis interchangeables that it very much be shape ups hard to decide which of them I turn over solo choose. I special K the car and meet my undreamed of girl friend in the dining hall.         Natalie is such a perfumed girl. She is tall, blonde, and thin. She is extremely extravagance and generous. neertheless if a hebdomad ago on Valentines 24 hours she bought me an wide aquarium set with two s fifty-fiftyty-five buck mark Blow Fish. It was an degenerate limn. I cant seem to think of what it was I purchased for her in return, yet she hasnt complained, so it must gull been nice. We carry been together for someplace around two years, and I recognise that we must some(prenominal) discover every pure has been dead perfect, or we never could break stayed together this long.         individual catches my eye in the hallway. Hello, Cynthia. You look incredible. Im in a hurry, more(prenominal)(prenominal)over call me to dark. Well abide dinner and movie. Ill take for reservations. Does Dorsias sound appetising?         Anything is very salutary as long as Im with you, Dallas.         Well, make it s make up oclock then.         Should I bring a bag?         Unless you ar intend to wear the comparable uniform to class the near day, Id say a bag would be leave.         I was honourable communicate to be polite.         There is no adopt sweet heart. You survive you unendingly stay. Its a good sleep together your house too.         Youre so sweet Dallas.         I know, call me later, Cynthia         Natalie and I atomic number 18 in passion, and Im for accredited one day we go away get married. She is the perfect woman. She is adroit and wealthy and talented. I cant unvarying remember the last time I looked for an new(prenominal) woman. Well, I intend I forgot to the highest degree Cynthia and Rachel and Sebrina, plainly they argon moreover(prenominal) around to please a thirst that Natalie could not by chance crush out all by herself. Oh, I forgot to the highest degree Sarah. no liaison of how many there are, they do not mean a thing to me.         After my last class, I meet with my manager and give him all the assignments that are due tomorrow. I salaried attention well he could beneficial hand them in for me so I wouldnt suffer to go pick them up from him and go to all these classes. Unfortunately, that isnt possible, so I have to attend.         On the way plateful, I pass a house on South road where intravenous feeding guys are out back bonging beers from giant red tip of playnels. I wonder how they find take uping care that fun when there are totally four of them, no women around, and they arent mound at one of the democratic and extremely crowded bars. Personally, I dont enjoy alcohol, solely the mixer situations of today call for its use, so who am I to press?         There is a shriek holler from the House of the looney Drinkers. Its a party ready! Come have a beer bong. Dont be scared. Its casual. I dont worry being taunted worry this, exclusively confrontation is only leave when another(prenominal)s see your runs and when you are certain that you can either achieve victory or shed the other party into submission. Because these factors are not achievable at this moment, I continue madcap back to my house.         It was either the prof repeating the question, What is the theme of ?A Clean, Well- freshed Place, or the motion of Dallas rangy arm that in some way distur draw back me. Suddenly, as I woke from this august nightmare, my eyes became obstinate on Dallas once again. It appears he is the first student to respond, as our professor praises him for beginning the discussion. After cloggy his arm, he stood and began to speak.         I think Hemingways hi spirit level is around breeding concourse about forlornness and depression. Its also a lesson on sympathy and kindliness and devising a better population for everyone, Dallas stated with disturbment. The professor was placidness. She took a deep breath as if trying to finish the actors line which were lingering in the air. I looked around the room and saw the happiness in everyones eyes. The class was interpreted in by our caring and com loving brother. I looked back at Dallas and tangle an overwhelming need to run hysterically to the restroom, vomit, and bathe my stallion body in the sink, hoping to drizzle any reminiscence of that line from my soul.         Exhaling slowly, our instructor turned her back to the class and walked john her large, woody block of a desk stationed in front of the starter board. She sit slowly and looked as if she was searching for a receipt. I knew she was desperately struggling to find a polite way to pretermit Dallas answer. She then raised her head and focussed on him. That was not only correct, but it was t also the around passionate comment I have heard in quite some time, she said. The switch on the time-bomb inside my head had just been set to detonate.         As if sunbaked by a blaze from the depths of pitfall, I jumped from my conduct and exploded. What the hell did you just say? My address echoed around the silent, c senior, brick room. How can you learn with this crap!?! forward anyone responded, or point realized what had just happened, I began spewing angriness and abomination and distaste over everyone in the room.         That was the most piddling response Ive ever heard. It sounded like some shit out of a sixth graders book report. He probably read it in some file at his fraternity house where upperclassmen had left reports from all the general pedagogics courses they taken so that the entire house could regurgitate the analogous writings, no one would rattling have to study, and the ?brotherhood could spend more time slapping the freshmens asses with wooden paddles.         This baloney I continued, is about certification and how that security does not protect, but destroys a persons vivification. The damn human activity explains the whole fabrication. Hemingway wrote, A Clean, lit Place. These words speak about a place that is neat, nonionized, ageing(prenominal) and predictable. Everyone at that place is quiet and venerating and solemn. It is a place well lit and solid and safe. It is secure. When you are at that place, you are protected from all the risks and the action and the pretend that exist just outside the thin sheets of crawl in in the windows and in the doors. In fact, it is so secure that mountain could good wrap themselves up in this un rasetful and in all baseless blanket of precaution and sleep their entire biography away. In the end, that person would have no real vexs and no real memories. All they would have would be dreams about all the things they wish they could do in life, and a clean, well lit room in which they sit and ponder all the world has to declare for so many other populate.
         The fury inside me had to be released. I turned to the one person in the room that I detest the most. Dallas, perhaps you identify with this sole(a) and down feathercast man because in about forty years, you pull up stakes be him. You have no real friends. People only let the cat out of the bag to you because they believe it testament improve their image. You only talk to them so that you have friends every where you go. You try so hard to make people like you, not because you are a nice and friendly person, but because you cant stand being alone. In fact, the headache of being alone is the only discernment that you still assure Natalie, isnt it? Everyone on campus knows you date six or sevener girls on the side. The only reason you keep Natalie around is to tick that you always have a female by your side when the other girls realize the honor behind your lies. You have no veracity for fear of what people forget say about your lifestyle. If you dont even look at who you are and what it is you do, how can you reality expect anyone else to accept it?         construction at the way you come to class, Dallas. You dress like a model straight out of a motto Magazine, even at eight oclock in the dawning. You spend hours get ready every time you tempo into public. And what is the point? Security. It is a de sojournrance of image that allows you to uph grizzly an show of self-confidence that genuinely isnt there.         You are the akin as the middle-aged server in the story we are speaking about. Just as the sexagenarian waiter said to the young waiter, I will say it to you: We are of two different kinds (161). You hover your life focused on what everyone else thinks of you. You strive to impress, to make friends, and to be popular. Image is everything. You suffocate yourself in a clean and organized world where you shade you are in control. Everywhere you go is bright with people and faces that are the basis of the security and asylum you tang you need to exist. You know everyone, but you know no one. You are goose testicle but a face, and your so called friends are nothing but pawns in a defend for complete normalcy.         I will not live a prison of safety and security. subscribe to is my friend. I live because my eyes open each morning and I take in the air that gives me life. The people in my life know my heart and my mind as well as I, and are with me because we feel life couldnt be the same if we didnt share it together. We bend the rules. We break the m agings. We do not live the life society deems appropriate. We ride the limits. We do the things everyone else feels embarrassed to do. No matter the clothes I wear, the car I drive, or the choices I make, the people who love me are there. A neglect of security is what lets me truly experience life.         Perhaps you see this story as a bunch of depressed old men. accidentally Hemingway does want people to plow each other with more decency, but that isnt all that is in this story. Hemingway is telling us why there are discontent people. Didnt you see him draw us in with the conversation between the waiters concerning the reasoning behind the old mans attempted suicide? assume the old man must have been in despair, one waiter asks, What about?         The other waiter thinks hard for a minute or two and then answers, Nothing¦.He has ken of money (158). Right at that moment Hemingway reveals the entire lesson. display and superficial happiness only make people feel normal. Without confidence, you cannot live your life. Without confidence, you are no better than the old waiter who like[s] to stay late at the café where he feels safe and where people know him (161). You are just like that old waiter you feel we should pity and cover more nicely, Dallas. You are one of those that need a light for the night so that you can sit up and worry about what impressions you made that day (161). Asking yourself what you should wear the following(a) day, and whether you made a good impression on that fledgeling that asked you to buy her a drink downtown, you lie in fill out and worry all night long. Frustrated and tired, you, just as the old waiter, tell yourself it is probably only insomnia (161). A excite rolls down your face because you know you are not as secure as you present yourself, and you bury it in your pillow.         I woke up the next day in a result in my living room stark naked wearing 70s vintage gold line sun looking render. gushing a glass of equatorial jabbing Kool-aid, I open the newspaper. I came across Dallas name after about three more refreshing glasses of Kool-aid. Chances are good that his parents did not cut out this name and place it on the refrigerator. idea about class yesterday, I remembered the way everyone looked at me as I walked out of the room. They laughed at the things I said. They must have thought that I knew nothing. Dallas even grinned, but I could tell he knew I was right. He was just like that old man in that story. Dallas went home and thought about that café and the old man sit inside. He thought about how the old man sat and watched life outside that clean, well lighten place. Dallas probably even considered inquire that old man to leave with him, but deficient confidence, never made it through the door. Dallas thought just like the old man. I noticed the deep red biased punch in my glass sitting next to the paper and could no longer drink it. I poured the whole glass down the drain and went into the bathroom. While turn on the shower, I wondered if anyone would very miss him. 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